Keeping myself off of fb and tumblr to avoid Dr. Who and Walking Dead spoilers.
I haven’t had the time to watch either yet.
My roommate and I took our guys out for a double date to a local(ish) pumpkin patch yesterday between churches (my work and all of ours afterwards); B and I dressed nice and Renee brought her nice camera so we could finally get a non-selfie picture of us. But when we got home (close to 10pm), Renee said she didn’t have her memory card reader. Can you see where this is going? I have to wait for who knows how long for her to find this thing—so I can see the pictures, or get them printed.
And then B decided while we were on the phone last night, right after I had told him that I was really falling asleep and I was excited to finally get more than a few hours of sleep, to start picking at a fight. I was so incredibly frustrated. Definitely wasn’t sleeping at all. Everything in me does not want to go to bed angry. So I want to stay up later and let my heart heal a little bit. To not go to bed bitter or angry or frustrated in any way towards him. It only hurts because someone I trust immensely is pushing me out. I shouldn’t be so emotional about something like this anyways. I should be more dependent on God and not on B. But it definitely hurts.
We are still learning how to serve one another and that is proving to be one of the greatest difficulties. Understanding that the things that we do or say always affect the other person, to some degree.
And then I had to be at Domino’s this morning. A nine hour shift where I am trying to avoid using my phone. But I need something to help distract me from my, still, frustrations. I have received two text messages. I do not have the words to respond right now. I’m just going to keep praying until I can find them.
Eating a bowl of cereal and binge watching Netflix at 2:30am