THIS JUST HAPPENED. BE STILL MY BEATING HEART.
- Shawna: "Brandon, I know its about two months out, but have you thought about what you want to be for Halloween?"
- B: "What if you were Tauriel and I was Kili? You'd wear elf ears and I'd be your dwarf-man."
- S: "WHAT?"
- B: tapers off and says goodbye--off to sleep he goes.
- *INTERNET SEARCHES ON HOBBIT COSPLAYS INTENSIFIES*
It’s my first time at the doctors in almost 3 years.
I’m super nervous about how bad my vertigo has been for the past few months and especially this last week.
The nurse just walked me back to an exam room.
Room number 221.
I’m not nervous anymore.
All I Want
Right now is to go into the living room and watch tv.
I have to put “effort” into it because clothes are necessary when your roommates fiancé is ALWAYS over unannounced.
He blesses me with B.
Frustrated, confused and sad at how tomorrow’s events are supposed to pan-out.
I asked B to pray for me tonight. And just now, over our phone call, he prayed for me. Without hesitation he said “I’m praying for it right now. You ready?”
Here’s what has me so flustered about tomorrow:
Teaching Sunday School for my youths (at my church in central SD). 9am-Noon
A California wedding reception for an old friend of mine (in Escondido). 1:30-5:30pm
A baptism for one of my junior high girls (@ Mission Bay). 2/3pm
A funeral/Memorial service for one of my best friends dad (downtown SD). 4pm
A Sherlock meet up with other fans (Seaport Village–downtown SD). 5pm
And church in Escondido at 7pm.
Not only do I not know how I’m going to physically do this, but emotionally. The funeral definitely has me reeling. I’m one of those “I cry everything in movies” kind of girls. The loss of someone that I actually knew is really hard.
Yes, I believe that he was saved and I shouldn’t be sad. It’s just the sadness of the whole family that breaks my heart. I don’t like seeing others in pain.
We lost one.
He gained him.
Kingdom minded, right?
No more crocodile tears, Shawna.
I haven’t had a spell this bad in a long time.
I couldn’t sleep last night.
Up and down to the bathroom to go hover in hopes of throwing up just to get the feeling to go away.
I have anti-nausea medicine, but it tends to make me more light headed.
I’m supposed to fill a shift at Dominos today too.
Why do things always happen on busy days?
I guess I’m being told to slow down.